Baby Making Facts I Just Learned

• It takes the average healthy couple 6-12 months to conceive.
• A woman not on birth control in her early 20s has a 20-25% chance of conceiving each month. By late 20s it's 15-20%. By early 30s it's 10-15%.
• Sperm can live for up to 3 days (sometimes longer) but...
  
• Once an egg is released from the ovary and floats through the fallopian tube, there is only a 12-24hr window during which it can be fertilized. After that it disintegrates.

(I started reading What to Expect Before You're Expecting, just to get a jump start understanding what may be ahead for me.)

With those statistics, how in the world does anyone get pregnant?! Really, those are not great odds. I think about teenagers getting knocked up accidentally. Seriously, talk about bad timing of that sex. Honestly I do think it's a miracle. Yet some people manage to do it many times. Amazing.

The stress for me mainly has been thinking about timing. My gyno recommended that we wait three months after I quit taking birth control to get in top baby-making shape (mainly building up uterine lining since the pill I took thinned it out as one of its duties), then expect it to take at least a year but not to stress it. I started doing the math and it's just really overwhelming. When do I stop the pill? Do we wait the three months (trying to avoid getting pregnant) or just give it a go (since hey, if it actually takes, must mean everything was fine enough)? Do I want to do all the planning/charting or take a it'll-happen-if-it-happens attitude? Am I ready if I was to get pregnant right away? Don't I want to start trying, if it does take awhile, before I get to feeling really anxious and eager for it to happen? And then do I want to try to time it, if that's possible? Should I try to avoid getting pregnant nine months before a big conference for work, do I care about when I'd go on maternity leave and what would be convenient for work? Do I believe in astrology enough to try to hit a baby into the signs I like? Seriously it's stuff to consider!

I realized, after a few weeks of thinking and stressing about this, that if I found out today I was pregnant, I'd be (well freaked out a little and scared but also) okay and excited about that. Especially since I'd have to be, there's no other choice, it'd have already been decided. It's the decision of timing it out that has me overanalyzing. I guess I'd feel more comfortable just leaving it up to... chance, to God and the universe, to fate, to whatever :) If I believe in some sort of grand planning and not just randomness, which I do to some degree. If I felt like it was in someone else's control, I think I'd feel better. Isn't that strange? As much as I like to have control over things, and that's the very thing I'm stressing about is how much control I have over this, I'd actually feel relieved to believe that the timing was divine timing. So I took that as my answer.